" the return from Sabbatical "

the mind decided to go on " sabbatical " -- this means rest from work .... chei but that's too much English sef cos my mind really did not go for a break ... it just chose not to communicate with my pen .... its funny how i felt the talk about my mind was so insignificant   .... but phone calls and text from readers has made me reconsider and hence the quick/ sudden return from the break...... ( feeling important in my mind .... please allow it.)  

the mind which is constantly active still remains in that state ....  the flowing still remains the same or better still it has become more active ..... its funny how it daily loads itself with other peoples issues, the society and then mostly thought of whats going to happen tomorrow( the amazing future that looks so cloudy ..... this cloudy nature tends to activate the hopeful part of the human nature)

Dont crucify me on the last sentence.... I am just human after all.....

Just needed to drive in the initial direction in which i started : the transfer from 

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 the "untitled" has become " titled"

Sit back relax and enjoy the varying series to follow ......


its the return of the  titled  state of mind ......

*action movie soundtrack ...... ghen ghen  


........................................  to be continued

“the untitled”

The human mind/heart is constantly active and the thoughts that flow makes me say uhmmmmmmm … (*deep sigh). This is a function of me I guess or should I say believe a lot of us can also relate to this ….. I wonder a lot nowadays and then I searched deeply and realized that my mind is like the streets of New York City… ever busy …. In fact it is the busiest part of my composition (body, soul and spirit) …
I got so worried and decided to ask questions from the experts and the elderly….. The feedback from them is that it is normal and that I should continue but make sure I tame it :)  … but it seems the harder I tried to stop the busier it became …. Or how does one explain waking up in the morning after a sound sleep and u already feel tired …. This got me worried and then it started nose diving into mood swings, then the issue arose ….. I had to take a chill pill, then I paused a little and chose to speak to my mind by asking it a question ….. What’s up with u? …. D difference about the line of questioning this time was that I was so willing to listen to it because I needed a solution as fast as possible ….. and the need for the solution can be compared to life in Lagos during rush hour 
To my greatest surprise, the harder I tried the more it kept returning something similar to the title of this writing “untitled” or in another word“nothing” ….. This can be compared to saying it returned nothing of value.
This self-consciousness of being unable to know the exact things on my mind has now led me to asking series of questions.
The questions being asked based on further probe has finally proven fruitful 
This breakthrough marks the beginning of my write-ups on issues of my mind ……

The “untitled” shall become “titled”.

………………………to be continued

“love nwantiti”

“love nwantiti” — I hope I got the spelling right 

The usual music loving me was having a great time listening to music. Then a particular song with the line “don’t get it twisted, love is a beautiful thing” started and this sent my mind on another journey….. This my mind sef ….smh . Anyways “love” is an issue and would always be an issue.

My line of thought took me on a journey of all the times I have fallen in love as we popularly call it…. I think because we use the word fall, I have been a victim by falling a couple of times …. And since when u fall u don’t remain fallen, I have risen a couple of times too…. But how long would I keep falling and having to rise?? A question I guess the day I say “I do” would eventually answer (this should be soon sha …wink wink)

Love is good that’s not in doubt. It means a lot and it is evident in a lot of ways. The trees move and all they say and sing is love… The birds fly about and give melodious tunes that establish love… The sea is not left out with its waves and the sun shining so bright is all about love. Love is kind, gentle, peaceful, sharing and a host of other good attributes. It is not greedy, self-seeking nor troublesome. In short it is great.

Story story …. Story, once upon a time…. Time time :)  Sometime ago, in an ancient town, I fell in love with a girl (still love her but she is now out of my reach). I never looked at another girl all through but I eventually broke up. This breaking up has made me ask various questions such as: Should I have broken up? Was the love reciprocal? Could I have done certain things better? What was missing that I had to break-up? I thought they said love was all that was needed to sustain a relationship… I broke up with her and then continued with a lot of bitterness (am sure u ar wondering why …… uhmmm, I heard a lot of gist that made me feel like a fool) … This sudden anger made me ignite a dark side or beta still I had to turn on my “swag” to stay in the game of life …… In some cases, I was termed a badt guy and in some I just couldn’t live up to expectation because it wasn’t a natural thing (a dulling guy). I was simply trying to heal from the wounds of falling in love…. I went to other relationships still with the scars from the first fall and then realized it was all a cycle…. The question I ask is would this cycle ever end? Am sure a lot of people can deduce my current status from this 

I have learnt a lot from the different phases encountered thus far and realized that love isn’t enough. The belief in a supreme being (GOD) is key to the healing of wounds and sustenance of love… (now sounding like a preacher) ….. Others I have realized are effective communication, patience, romance (not talking of sex for now because it is another issue on my mind) and money (the vehicle of evangelism (keke ihinrere  ))..

My pen drops for now to rest while I ponder a little longer…

…..to be continued