“love nwantiti”

“love nwantiti” — I hope I got the spelling right 

The usual music loving me was having a great time listening to music. Then a particular song with the line “don’t get it twisted, love is a beautiful thing” started and this sent my mind on another journey….. This my mind sef ….smh . Anyways “love” is an issue and would always be an issue.

My line of thought took me on a journey of all the times I have fallen in love as we popularly call it…. I think because we use the word fall, I have been a victim by falling a couple of times …. And since when u fall u don’t remain fallen, I have risen a couple of times too…. But how long would I keep falling and having to rise?? A question I guess the day I say “I do” would eventually answer (this should be soon sha …wink wink)

Love is good that’s not in doubt. It means a lot and it is evident in a lot of ways. The trees move and all they say and sing is love… The birds fly about and give melodious tunes that establish love… The sea is not left out with its waves and the sun shining so bright is all about love. Love is kind, gentle, peaceful, sharing and a host of other good attributes. It is not greedy, self-seeking nor troublesome. In short it is great.

Story story …. Story, once upon a time…. Time time :)  Sometime ago, in an ancient town, I fell in love with a girl (still love her but she is now out of my reach). I never looked at another girl all through but I eventually broke up. This breaking up has made me ask various questions such as: Should I have broken up? Was the love reciprocal? Could I have done certain things better? What was missing that I had to break-up? I thought they said love was all that was needed to sustain a relationship… I broke up with her and then continued with a lot of bitterness (am sure u ar wondering why …… uhmmm, I heard a lot of gist that made me feel like a fool) … This sudden anger made me ignite a dark side or beta still I had to turn on my “swag” to stay in the game of life …… In some cases, I was termed a badt guy and in some I just couldn’t live up to expectation because it wasn’t a natural thing (a dulling guy). I was simply trying to heal from the wounds of falling in love…. I went to other relationships still with the scars from the first fall and then realized it was all a cycle…. The question I ask is would this cycle ever end? Am sure a lot of people can deduce my current status from this 

I have learnt a lot from the different phases encountered thus far and realized that love isn’t enough. The belief in a supreme being (GOD) is key to the healing of wounds and sustenance of love… (now sounding like a preacher) ….. Others I have realized are effective communication, patience, romance (not talking of sex for now because it is another issue on my mind) and money (the vehicle of evangelism (keke ihinrere  ))..

My pen drops for now to rest while I ponder a little longer…

…..to be continued